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Healing Journey

Healing Journey

I was stuck in a cycle of numbing my pain, doing anything possible to quiet the feelings even if for only a moment. Starving, purging, cutting...these were the only things that gave me relief from the screaming in my mind. I just wanted it to stop.
The Beginning of my Self-Love Journey

The Beginning of my Self-Love Journey

Overcoming my eating disorder, started with learning how to treat myself with compassion.
I hated myself. I blamed myself for the OCD, for the rape, and so much more. I could not find a way to treat my present self with compassion.
The Patriarchy and Diet Culture

The Patriarchy and Diet Culture

Diet culture is rooted in the patriarchy. Diet culture survives off of keeping women contained, small, quiet, and unheard.⁣

Love is an action, not a feeling

Love is an action, not a feeling

Shifting the way we look at body acceptance to more of a fluid dance, knowing it is ok to move from acceptance to peace to body positivity to neutrality is a great step. Life is all about a fluid, ever changing, dance. Making peace with our bodies has to start somewhere. And wherever you are in your journey, honor it.
The Deeper Harm of Diet Culture

The Deeper Harm of Diet Culture

"Diet culture has engrained in us that, as women, we are defined by our bodies. We are taught from a very early age to be small, pretty, quiet, fragile. We are taught this is what it means to be feminine. A woman’s body is not an object. Our bodies are not something for other people to comment on."
An Excerpt from "The Courage to Hope"-coming later 2021

An Excerpt from "The Courage to Hope"-coming later 2021

I sat at the foot of the bed as the nurse went over the long list of rules: no walking, no getting up out of bed unassisted, three meals and snacks must be completely eaten or I would be given a feeding tube, no visitors other than my immediate family.

I started to cry. “Mom, please don’t leave me here,” I pleaded. “I will eat. I promise. I don’t want to be here.”
Ending the Stigma of Mental Health

Ending the Stigma of Mental Health

It is time. I am not afraid to talk about it anymore. Mental health stigma needs to end.
Health is not a size.

Health is not a size.

Health is not a size. Health is not a weight. We have been conditioned to associate the size of our bodies with our health. Healthy bodies come in all shapes and sizes. What is healthy for my body is different than what is healthy for your body.
eating disorder recovery

Do it scared. Just do it.

Courage is a muscle and we build it by doing things that scare us. Do it scared. Just do it. It gets easier and you get stronger. One thing every day that scares you. One thing, that's it. You've got this <3 This was key in my eating disorder recovery. 
Learning to Live

Learning to Live

Learning to live with self-compassion was my first step in recovery. You deserve to figure out how to love yourself <3